Last nite as i sat in the park crying and expressing what was on my heart i realized,im doing exactly what i shouldnt be..Im determined to make it about Him but yet Im making it about me.As i sat there looking at the beauty of what Father can do and knowing if i only would give Him the front of the bike..let Him guide me that beauty would shine threw me..I sat there tears falling and realizeing its time to stop saying im going to do something and instead get up and do it..Yesterday was difficult but talking to Gina and Kris helped me see something they helped me see lifes not supposed to be easy,They reminded me this is our battle feild,this is our battle our Party well come soon enough!Here i sit and think about the beauty around me,determined now to Go and start something Father has shown me He will catch every tear that falls I am never alone,It wont be easy but its the tough times when you see only one set of footprints,He willl carry me threw..but its me that has to reach up like a little child and let him take me..Im afraid,confused,and yet inside there is still such a Joy..Dig beneath the pain,you will see a little girl not so little anymore,but ready to take a stand!As i sit in Church and we sing i want to be the one that stands when everyone else is still sitting,when we stand im going to be that little child reaching her hands to Father,reaching out for a Hug,reaching out saying Father take me,hold me,carry me threw this..I hear people mock and make fun when someone in our church lifts thier hands to Father but i am not afraid!It wont be easy i know..but Fathers already shown me why im back here..It takes time and patience but im seeing Him now and i know ill shed tears but i also know he counts my every tears and catches them in a bottle..
There is a girl whos looking up to me,
she wants to be all she can be,
Father why have you chosen me?
I dont understand,
but i know its me she wants to see,
lift my hands and take a stand,
so Father now i pray
help me be a leader and show her the way
Take the front ill take the back
Carry me when i start to slack
your wake up call i want to hear
when i start to shed a tear
help me know you catch them all
and well always catch me when i fall
Im so afraid but so is she
Father help me to be
all youve planned of me..
1 Comments:
wow. thats amazing. to think that those verses I read this morn could only be ment for me at the time and then to talk to you and find that they helped you really shows me how Father really is useing our whole family to help each other out and strengthen each other with out even knowing it! well thanks for your help and I am glad father used those verses to help you. God Bless! your brother,TC
Post a Comment
Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]
<< Home