Life..its the cry of my heart..

Its not about me..All about Him

Ok so summary of this weekend..Father broke my heart in more ways then i realized.This blog is going to come from my heart but its going to be diferent.My prayer is that you read this and ask Father what or who(youll understand just read)

Yec was awesome we had a really awesome speaker,stuart hall,.Father used Him to speak to us about Love and truely being broken well honestly at first i was like im doing everything Father is asking me im not holding back and i have been broken already so i just sat and listened well,i learned i was wrong Father broke my heart seeing someone i havent seen in a really long time who was an amazing sister on the M experience.(my ambulance buddy)see that had been a prayer of mine for awhile to see her bc i couldnt get ahold of her,and there she was i wasnt even supposed to be at that spot.wow father opened my eyes..last nite i didnt think much about it.But today i went back and well again i wasnt expecting to learn to much but was willing to listen to whatever was in store and wow was there a lesson to be taught.

Here is what truely broke me..Lately i wasnt sure what else i could be doing for father i thought i was doing all he was asking but i was wrong..the speaker came up and started talking about being lost i was like ok well im not..He used proverbs 4 which is an amazing part of scripture!Solomon is talking about fixing our eyes ahead and keeping our feet from evil..(you should read it)but ok im still thinking what am i supposed to learn Father?Well he continued to talk about reflecting ourselves back to Father and keeping our feet on the right paths and staying focused and then when i thought it was closeing and there wasnt much for me except to help teach others what he just taught Father said here is your answer..when he said this i heard Father not stuart He said "If you are in a friendship and you know that someone is doing something they shouldnt be or liveing a way they shouldnt be and you arent telling them then your in a friendship and thats all you are worried about,but if you step out and tell them you are being a friend a true friend"ok so that moment father broke me i knew who i knew when i knew..i was holding something back that i didnt even realize..its the little things..
I wouldnt trade the tears and pain i feel and brokeness for anything..because with all this comes such a love and need for Father i cant even begin to grasp..


This summer,this weekend and everyday Father is growing me.
My question is are you allowing Him to Grow you?Because its not that He isnt,its that you arent allowing him to..

posted by Crystal[He will carry me.] @ 11:51 PM