Life..its the cry of my heart..

There will be day(thanks dad)

There is something that has touched my heart these last few days and its truely opened my eyes to a whole new world that surrounds me.There is a sound that fills the air that you can only truely hear when you finally learn to listen with your heart and not your ears.This didnt make a lot of since to me at first as i began to go threw things in my head but as i started truely listening to what was on my heart i realized that God does speak to us and He is sending us msgs daily almost as if its a daily alarm clock or a phone call from your best friend.This past week Father has spoken to me in ways i never could of understood unless i opened my heart and closed my ears.I am hurting in ways i never thought i would and the pain comes from within my heart in places i never knew could hurt,its an ache and a longing to not feel so alone,as i listen to the words of a song that was just introduced to me it breaks me.I felt a feeling i had not felt in two years tonight as i listened to the words,I was taken back to that room filled with more love for Father than i had ever felt and the worship and strength i felt but yet the feeling of being stripped and completely broken apart,as i list the words below i ask you take the time to read them word for word and not take it lightly.It is truely a prayer!You have to listen with your heart and read the words and know that no matter what we go threw in our lives there will be a day when all of the suffering and fears well be stripped and know that we are never alone.THERE WILL BE A DAY!!Those words i just cannot explain how much they mean,Its going back to that day two years ago in a beautiful breath taking park in Germany and knowing that as everything seemed to be falling apart and it felt that we had been defeated i remember breaking threw and realizeing that Father had plans for us,I remember thinking that i wouldnt make it threw and everytime i got discouraged and started looking threw the eyes of the world someone was placed in my path that helped me look back threw the eyes of my heart and the eyes that Father had given me.Most say the world is a broken place but something i havent caught on to until now is that the world is not broken enough,we as Fathers children have to release our hearts to be broken and have to allow Father to mold and shape us so we can go out and strip this world and break it into peices.Because in order to be made into His divine plan for us we need to allow our hearts to be broken.Going back to that day i wish i could have realized all of this then,It would have made things smoother but that wasnt His plan,Idk why it took me two years to see things this way idk why im still being broken and tested and idk why certain people who i grew to love that week have been taken from me,but i do know that i will not question Father and i thank Him for giving me the oppurtunities i had that day that week and everyday of my life.I thank Father for allowing me to be broken.and i thank Him for taking me back to that park and bringing since of what happened that day and helping me to see threw the eyes of my heart why what happened needed to happen.I may not understand it all but its more clear.

I remember fear,pain,sorrow,but i remember what followed that day and the unity that day brought us.And i could not ask for more!If anything that day allowed a group of people to work together and become one to remain calm and allow Father to lead us and we did not let it defeat us but only make us more determined and stronger.So for that I thank you Lord.

Thankyou for makeing it clearer and allowing me to be broken even more.

Heres the words to the song:
Jeremy Camp,There will be a day.
I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings,
and the hurt that tries to grab
The many trials that seem to never end,
His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew
But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering
(Chorus) There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
we'll see Jesus face to face But until that day,
we'll hold on to you always I know the journey seems so long
You feel you’re walking on your own But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone (Chorus)
Troubled soul don’t lose your heart Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting
I can’t wait until that day where the very one
I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life
of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing





Wait for the Lord;Be strong take heart and wait for the Lord. psalm 27:14

posted by Crystal[He will carry me.] @ 1:04 AM