I dont care anymore..if people are going to judge me on my past then let them.I am not who i was two years ago im not who i was 1 year ago.I have grown and feel i am growing each day.I am just striving to be a strong Christian yes i do fail many times and yes what i think is the right thing isnt always..but dont judge me on that.I honestly am having trouble figureing out who my true friends are and who i can and cant trust..i know that i have the "band"(Father Son and Holy spirit) to lean on and thats what keeps me going!I love Father and i learned to lean on Him more than ever this summer..Father is leading me in some new directions and it is scary because i dont necisarrily want to leave but is that what Father is calling me to do??I really dont know anymore..I think its time people let go of my past because tonite i am..though it is hard and i will struggle threw this im willing and ready to move on and forget..I hope and pray you will too!I have wronged many people and tonite i ask that if i have ever wronged or hurt you to forgive me..not just say you are and hold it in the back of your head but truely let it go!I am going to with alot of people..The person i have hurt most by not letting go is Father because i know He has made me new!Tonite as i sit in tears knowing that not even the church can let go of who i was a year and two years ago,im broken.Broken because i realize everything i was taught this summer..Im back in that room and i feel Father speaking to me..I listen and come home and ignore that calling..please pray for strength tonite as i let go and prepare to move on in life and not carry the past with me...
To those of you who know me some changes are going to be made very soon..and they well be hard but i cant live in the past and i cant worship God in a place where they cant let go eather..I want to worship God to the fullest!
God bless..
Wait for the Lord;Be strong take heart and wait for the Lord. psalm 27:14
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