I just feel like writing out my thoughts today even if they dont make since.
I dont understand why it seems you can go so far out of your way for people and it feels like no one even appreciates your actions.My family is giveing in so many ways right now and my mom gets so criticized i wish that she would be cut a break just once..I know that its not about what you receive in life its about what you give but its hard when i see someone giving everything she has and in return she gets hurt,i hate it and wish i could do something but what can i do??Im only 19 and i wanna change the world,I hate pain and tears,I hate seeing children who are sick and women who are beaten,I wanna be a change in this world i wanna step out and give something I wanna give myself!Tonight i sit here finally able to say im happy,Ive learned to give my life up to Father and to completely let all my worries go,Though at times we all struggle i can laugh these days and i want that for my mom and everyone,I wanna bring smiles and laughter to everyone bc it truely makes a diference,Maybe its selfish of me but i wanna be a change,I wanna do everything i can but i sit here tonight with no clue where to even begin???Im lost in my own house my own backyard??I wanna venture but where i feel so stranded so alone.= [
though i am happy i dont know where to begin its like my world is spinning in a million and one direcions,I met someone and he truely brightens my life!he makes me see apart of this world i never knew..I want happiness for the world.I want to be a change..I have this urge to get on my feet and make my voice heard i want to make a diference.Im tired of tears tired of saddness tired of crying...
I needed to get these words out.
Thankyou.
P/S.I miss you dad!= ]
I miss summer 2006.
I wanna be broken again.
torn to peices for a cause that i know is lifechangeing.
Wait for the Lord;Be strong take heart and wait for the Lord. psalm 27:14
posted by Crystal[He will carry me.] @ 7:14 PM
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